Charlie Kirk

I haven’t posted in ages.

I was wrapped up in myself. My struggles. My life. I was a bit lost, feeling out of place no matter where I went. Fearful of the future…wishing for the past.

I spent the last 6 and half months in Malaysia, mainlining tech “breakthroughs” and global geopolitics. Too much. It’s overwhelming to be piped in to the entire world and not live in your head.

I checked bitcoin price a dozen times a day. I watched dozens – now hundreds – of companies announce their bitcoin strategy, abandoning the dollar. I played with every new AI that rolled out, never truly as impressed as I thought I’d be. I lived with people building tech companies – but nothing I saw as world-changing as my head told my heart I needed to see.

I was seeking fulfillment from the outside, deaf to the cries of my soul.

That changed on Wednesday when I landed in Seattle – my first time on American soil since February. I had five hours to kill before my final flight and had already been up nearly two days straight. My first act as an American was to purchase a burger and fries, and then I sat down to feed my addictions. I opened X and immediately saw the news. Then the video, the hope of survivability…and the confirmation otherwise.

I’ve been lost in it for three days now – so lost I deleted X from my phone and shut it off.

Yet the laptop beckons, and each time I open it, I see more.

More unity. More courage. More pause.

What this means – I don’t know. There are those who say the western world is beyond saving. They would point to this incident as proof of their theory. They would view it as supporting evidence – a catalyst leading to predictable conflict. And maybe they are right.

But the future is not certain. It remains the sum of choices yet to be made.

They would say the choices are predictable, set in stone…inevitable.

Maybe. And I may even agree.

However, one thing I’ve realized: people surprise you.

They don’t always act rationally – in fact, they often don’t. They are sometimes virtuous and self-sacrificing, sometimes selfish fools.

They are unpredictable. They are human.

We will have the future we create. And there is always hope.